A Clockwork Doll in Salah

  • Unmosqued

    I laud your courage for writing this piece. May He make it easy for you.

  • Anke

    I think it is quite normal to have spiritual ups and downs. I get them too. I find it helpful to change my routine once in a while, but perhaps that’s easier in Christianity than Islam?
    One Ramadan I prayed the Islamic prayer movements and recited Bible verses. I found that really beautiful and meaningful for that period of time.

    How long ago did you convert?

    Funny enough, I am just writing a blog on my 12 years as a Christian. It’s my anniversary this week.

    Keep walking with God and you’ll be fine.

  • ibn Muhammad

    I think you’re doing yourself a disservice by not seeking out a support system. I have to admit us “born muslims” often do not do a stellar job of providing support to our newly converted brethren and sisters once they’ve taken their shahada.

    In light of this, there’s still the onus on you as a muslimah to offer your prayers on time. Salah is supposed to be a solution to the lack of religious zeal that we sometimes feel. If we determine the laziness to be a cause for not praying instead of the other way around, then it’s easy work for the shaytaan to just trick us into this hopeless cycle.

    So I hope that I can offer you some advice and urge you to try your hardest to complete your prayers on time, and also devote yourself to studying the fundamentals of the religion so that you will have the knowledge and its practical application in your daily routine, and this will be a sufficient cure if Allah wills.

  • Sam

    I struggle too, sister.

    I even find it more comfortable and … honest when I pray nafl rather than the fard and sunnah. Sometimes they just feel so forced, so contrived. I feel bad though when I miss the five. I know I should and it’s a lot like running or any exercise. Sometimes it is great and sometimes you just don’t want to be doing it but afterwards you feel better. Sometimes for dhuhr I don’t really feel connected until the last sunnah. God knows best though, and I trust Him.

    Just keep Him in mind and, insha’Allah, you will be fine. Don’t take my word for it. Ask Him.

  • Renee

    thank you for this post sister! As a revert myself, I find it too difficult to keep up with my prayers, making excuses for not doing them. Its good to know that I am not alone. Its good to know that struggle is normal and that we CAN get back on track! xoxo

  • knox_o

    Muslim born & bred, as it were, and though I always make it to the prayer mat 5 times a day physically, I constantly struggle with concentration talk less actually feeling any kind of connection a lot of the time. That clockwork-salah-doll definitely strikes a chord. I’m hoping and praying you find a community of people, especially muslims, who you find you are able to share with and feel supported by, even if that only starts online.
    Thank you so much for choosing to share this, Looking forward to reading more from you.

  • Susan Waked

    The thing about salah is – You don’t have to feel it to do it. It’s great if you have that wonderful connected-to-Allah feeling when you pray. But that’s not why I pray. I pray out of obedience. Allah asked us to do this. He does SO much for me, I can do this. Even if I don’t feel like it. Insha’Allah it will get easier for you. I respect you for writing about it.